The Reset

I am chilling at a resort. One of your favorites. It is peaceful and quiet. I just wanted to add an update on whats going.

I first started this blog in 2013 – 13 years ago. I then revived it in late 2022 as I embarked on the Marathon goal in 2024. This blog was CRITICAL for me to externalize my thoughts as I charged towards that goal which I FINISHED. It was one of the most amazing days of my life to walk back from that finish line. My timing sucked, but I proud that I finished it. What the fuck man – I ran the fucking NY Marathon.

My twenties were carefree. I fucked around, but also tested some limits of my body with strength training. I definitely abused food. I took it to the limit.

My thirties were similar until recently. The alcohol abuse went very high. I peaked with food abuse a few years ago with 3 am pizzas and burgers. I used to load up on 4000 calories post 2 am. How the hell did I even survive this far?

This blog, though, helped me remain on the path to the Marathon despite my short comings. As you probably know, the Marathon is more about the training than it is about that point in time delivery. More so than any normal race. But in my situation, I did a “dirty Marathon training session”.

Basic learning: This blog is magical to my evolution. If I use it right.

What does it mean to use it right?

1. Have a clear goal. Measurable success. Measurable progress.
2. I need to give constant updates. I need to be less filtered. I cannot hide the facts from the world. It not only captures my evolving mindset, but helps me think. Writing is thinking for me. If I don’t write, I cannot think.

So, what’s next? Preparing for 40 to 65.

I cannot go into my 40s in the shape that I am in. I am 60 to 80 pounds overweight. The marathon training did not help me. My BP is high .. 140s/90s. I don’t want to be medicated. I dont even want to use GLP if I can avoid it. And my strength has been declining. And I pray to God that I will have a few kids, so I need to be able to progress on what I want through that.

Life cannot pause. You cannot be sequential about things. You cannot solve the health problem and then pivot to the other things. Nope. You have to keep making progress constantly. And for this, you need systems you can trust. For health, this is what I have been searching for a long time. I have constantly been disappointed. But here is an attempt.

Concierge Doctor

I am an overthinker when it comes to health. I remain in my fears. I try useless shit. I am bad at measuring. I am so knowledgeable (see The Game of Hormones and Enzymes – Insulin Resistance, Sensitivity and Fat metabolism) and I over plan. But then I dont commit. Part of the lack of commitment is that perhaps I dont have a clear simple thing to think about on a DAILY basis. And I dont get feedback.

Here comes the Concierge Doctor. I wont mention who this is. It is a famous one. I am paying them a retainer fee. They say the specialize in metabolic health, remote sensing, and tracking. This can be my executive team to get healthier. My goals are straight forward:

• Weight has to come down. Regardless of how you feel, your skeleton and cardiac system cannot carry so much weight into it’s 40s and 50s. So this has to be shredded down.
• Peripheral markers need to come down. BP, etc. Again, you cannot keep demanding so much from the heart for decades.
• Sleep has to improve. You cannot continue with sleep issues, apnea if it is indeed there. This will create amplified exponential decay.

Can I trust this Dr? Can I trust this system?

• He has papers and evidence that his practice has helped people.
• And I have followed this guy for 10 years. I have always been interested in what he is saying.

I am going to have to trust the system. And I need to owe it to myself to be discplined. I cannot let myself down. And I cannot let these Doctors down. I cannot let K down — she gave me an ultimatum.

I cannot let my progeny down.

And most importantly, I cannot let you down. You are me from 20 years. I am doing this for you.