Don’t hang out with looser, cynical types.
You are in a high stress situation, trying to accomplish something amazing. You need optimism. Not negativity.
Keep and preserve your own sanity.
Bro – if you promise yourself not to eat, then dont fucking eat.
Do NOT hang out with loosers. You have to TAKE THE NEXT STEP UP.
No excuses — just loose the weight now bro.
I am about to unload on this shit soon. I need to process a lot of crap.
Im so exhausted. Tired.
I cut out booze. I cut out coffee. Im trying to eat healthier everyday. I am running more than I have ever run.
But my weight is not budging.
Things that I havent touched:
Okay, BP is responding to the Blood Pressure Lifestyle
I am around 125/77. Thats is pretty awesome. About 10 point reduction. The beets seem to be having the biggest impact.
Alcohol abstainment is also going fine. I think the body has now gotten used to it. Probably will help the BP too.
I hate the idea of eating too much food.
I hate the idea of going to bars.
I feel mentally calm too.
This blood pressure thing is coming up, isnt it? Don’t worry about it. Just change your diet and continue your running and you will be fine. I know you feel hurt, angry and frustrated. It is frustrating indeed. I understand brother, better than you think. You are thinking about the future — is this the beginning of health problems that will plague you forever. And you are lamenting about the past — nothing you have tried has worked so why would this work now?
That’s just the game we are playing on this stage. You can prepare for the future and learn from the past. But in that process, don’t mess up the present. You are not the same person you were 2 years ago, or 5 years ago. I know it may seem like that but you are not. A lot of things look the same but they are different. And neither will you remain static as you march towards the future.
Just look at the fact that you ran a half marathon across New York City! Tell that to yourself from 2 years ago! You tried tried running so many times in the past, but it never stuck. And look at you now.
So yea – I am optimistic that things will be different now. You are a good guy, never doubt that. You are trying your best. And I have faith that it will come through.
I am going to do a 2 week intense intervention for weight, BP and fasting blood sugar. If I see good results, then great. Otherwise, I will invoke a Dr. and then take it from there.
April 14 today. We will do this until April 28.
If no improvements on April 28, then fuck it, we will go to the next tier: Talk to a Dr. and then get on medication.
This is one to be bookmarked:
A meal of just: carrots, avocado, banana, berries, tomatoes, etc.
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