I am overwhelmed with stuff. Many things are not going well. Personal life stuff, health, job. Everything seems kinda off.
I have also not drunk at all “this year” (since my birthday). I dont see any benefits of not drinking tbh. But I want to give it a shot for 3 months to see what I can achieve.
Three months should be enough to get on the right track.
The thing with being Sober is that I feel like my brain slows down. I cannot context switch easily. I just want to chill and not do stuff.
I honestly still havent seen a lot of benefit from being sober though. So, I dunno what to do.
My legs are dead. I couldn’t go one more step in the end. I was much slower than I was hoping for. But by god … I did something amazing. Fucking A.
For a moment after finishing the Half, I started having doubts about doing the Marathon. The Half felt SO HARD. But I am slowly coming back to being on track.
Dude, this Marathon is going to be INSANE. The Half gave you a preview about it. I cannot even – at this point – fathom thinking about doing ANOTHER half after this one is done.
I need to loose fat quickly. And need to keep the muscles good.
Let’s go dude.
(After a few days … )
Recap of the race
I started off a bit too strong. In fact, the first 6 miles were essentially at my 10k pace. I really wanted to break 3 hours on this marathon. But I wasn’t able to do it.
10k pace was good until I hit that bridge. Then, I hit my first “wall”. From the bridge to the UN I started to struggle. And then BOOM, at the UN (which was about mile 9), I hit the wall. It was TOUGH as fuck. My thighs started to give out. I slowed down the pace a lot.
Mile 13 was the hardest too.
After the race was done, I could not walk. I was just dead. The thought about running ANOTHER half marathon (which is what I would have to do for the full marathon) made me depressed.
In general, I was pretty sad about my time and performance. It felt a bit useful to have even attempted this. How the hell am I going to redo such a race? And how am I going to do the Marathon?
You know what? I have to do it. I don’t give a fuck. I am going to shed the weight and start practicing the runs more. This is my only goal for this year. I am going to look back at this blog in November and marvel at this. I know at this moment I don’t feel ready at all. But I am going to move heaven and hearth to be able to finish this one.
Food satisfaction is interesting. I have been doing this experiment on myself have been trying to model the idea of “food satisfaction impact”. When you eat any food, your satisfaction goes up. And then, it starts to decay.
What I am learning is that the accumulation of satisfaction follows a log. And then the decay of that satisfaction follows an inverse exponential.
But, it’s of course, it doesn’t go up linearly.
So, the hack or trick is that you can impulse with less and you can get decay for about the same amount . And this way total consumed calories is less.
It’s been a while I think. That’s fine. Here is an update for posterity.
I have continued running. I am doing better than last year. But my weight is not dropping. And I feel pretty worried about running the New York Marathon.
Now, I will absolutely run the New York marathon. There is no question about that.
The Rolex Life 