I had another one of these days. Previous one was Is This Therapy.
I didn’t want to stop. I could keep eating, man. I don’t know what happened.
I didn’t really enjoy it.
It was mostly mental. I was stressed out by work. Thinking through a lot of things. And I kept going.
I need to be careful about these days. I need to reduce these events. Once a quarter – okay fine. But frankly, my adherance has not been great over the last month.
What the fuck man. I am killing myself in the process. Last whole month I have not lost much weight. I have plateaued. And this is the reason why.
Okay, inadvertently, I have jacked up my BMR with this. So, my hope is that now I can reduce the calories and it will start helping
There are so many moving parts in my life. Some things that I can control and others that I am having trouble controlling.
Relationship. Family. Always hyped out by that.
Now work is taking on. It sucks and it can be good. There is an opportunity at work which I want to maximize. But at the same time, I hate that I have to think so much about it.
Finally – this fucking allergy season has been BRUTAL man. Fuck it. It really reduces my efficiency. This is the thing that is making me drink.
Sober
Allergy season and frustration have been fucking with me, man.
Food control
I am worried about family coming soon. I am going to have to be super careful. I need to get my protein from somewhere. And then just reduce the food a lot.