iMeditate

The mind works in strange ways. Well, at least my mind. ChatGPT tells me that I have hyperfocus and motivation irregulation adHd?.

I need to be mentally ready before I dive in. That’s what’s been holding me back. For instance, with in 2023 and 2024, I was mentally in. I had no questions. I had simplified what I was focussed on (running) and I dove in. The momentum was tremendous.

The question I have for you is that – do you want to (1) loose weight (2) fix your body’s vitals like BP, glucose, etc?

I dunno. It feels like so much work. Okay fine, I get it. What is my goal?

Marathon 2026. Is this an actual goal? Do you want to do this? I do.

I need some time to focus on other parts of the body besides the running load. Although cardio is important. I am so mentally stuck right now.

Like right now, I can’t stop thinking about the half marathon. I am not ready due to the Touching base and Injury injury. But I feel obligated to participate.

but let’s say you don’t participate – you shouldn’t get into a all or nothing mentality either. doesnt mean you sit at home and do nothing.

Fuck man. I am confused. Mentally stuck. What should I do? i am going to give myself time.

I just want to go to the park and enjoy. Ultimately thats what I want to do. I want to enjoy the gym. and not overly perspective.

Okay, done. Lets reduce the pressure and focus on enjoyment for now.