Taking pride in the body

I have often shirked from being so materialistic. But maybe that doesn’t always work….

I want to look at myself often, perfect the imperfections, constantly feel my muscles, and thinness. I need to create that mind-muscle connection. It is a form of meditation.

I do want to build a sexy body. Sculpt it all. Including the issues that I am not liking right now — rip the bandage.