My brain’s urge consume

I am in a mental pickle. Right now, all I want to do is order a massive deep dish pizza, drink, and pass out. I tried biking but my brain just didnt want to do it. Same with running.

Fuck. I am mentally frozen.

I wonder if I need to let it out. And then it will reset. And if that is the case, that sucks. I will need to find a different way to handle this shit.

Update 1:

I did a 10 minute meditation session. It helped so much. I am absolutely clear headed right now. I know I am burnt out and my brain is having trouble thinking about workout and diets and stuff right now. I have started to feel refreshed though.

I have told myself that this week is a vacation, and I am going to force myself to let loose. I am going to break my diet and my running schedule. I am going to chill out and relax. Do things like long term thinking, etc.

I am promising myself that next week I will start with a bang. Mentally recharged.