Sorry not sorry

Wednesday was crazy, man. For some reason, I got ridiculously stressed out. I acted crazy.

And then to chill out, I broke my sobriety. I walked into a bar and I ordered a Yuengling and a Macallan 12. I took two sips of that Macallan and I immediately chilled out. Fuck. It felt so good in that moment. It stopped me in my tracks, my mind slowed down, and I relaxed.

Then, I went and I got 4 slices of pizza. And they tasted amazing.

The next day, I had gone from 277 to 280.

On this day, it was still a bit high levels of stress. I didn’t drink alcohol, but I ate a lot of protein bars. And I slept very bad.

On the next day, I had gone from 280 to 282.

So, a 5 pound increase over two days.

This is how I ended Q1.

So, am I done with this bender? Yes. I am done with this bender. The new Q opens up new opportunities. New excitement. Renewed energy.

It will be interesting to see how those two cheat days impact me.

Anyway, the new Q starts with a new race this weekend. Excited to how things go!