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I don’t want to make a big deal about this but I would be remiss if I don’t at least mention it a bit.

I have largely abstained for more than a month. I find virtually no reason to consume it. Even in the social settings, I have found a great alternative in Heineken 0. I was able to go “out”, even watched the Superbowl with the usual crew, without the booze. Most people don’t even care or comment. I haven’t even needed to substitute it for a “light beer”.

I have take a sip here or there. And I – at this moment – deteste it. I hate the taste and the mental fogginess that I start to get. At this moment, I have zero desire for it.

I have gone through a lot of stress in the last 2 months. The blackout was the crescendo of that stress. And that was the last day I truly drank that stuff.

So, part of me is confident that I can keep it at bay. The running in particular really pushes me to remain sober. But another part of me says that because it was a reaction to the blackout, it might be temporary. I hope I can come back to this blog in the future – perhaps even expand it (so that it becomes a running log of sorts).

Anyway, don’t want to make it into a big deal. The ultimate goal is still Marathon 2024. I know that my body will have to transform in ways never done before to be able to accomplish that goal. No matter what happens (except for some crazy event), I have to be at that Marathon in 2024 and finish it.