When I was on vacation, I felt optimistic about this year. I was eating right, sleeping well and the mind was calm and clear. There was no sound outside – just quiet. I could hear my own thoughts. But now that I’m back in NY, my old habits are creeping up. I am sensing all these distractions around me. First, it starts with the noise. Just a low frequency rumble of the city. I think I was wrong – being in pin drop silence was useful. My body reacts to these sounds. I can feel it reacting. And I am sure this creates chronic stress.
This is going to be tough. I need to prioritize calming the mind so that I can be effective at other things. This external sound situation needs to be figured out.
Some symptoms of this chronic stress:
- I become mentally fixated on things. My ADHD goes on overdrive.
- I want to do everything at the same time. Like I’m running out of time.
My anxiety rises; I am afraid of losing track of time. I am ridiculously afraid that this year will rush by and I will have nothing to show for it. Hopes and dreams that I am pinning on myself, on this year — I will need to accomplish them. There is NO CHOICE.
The Rolex Life 
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